My Mom

 She stopped talking to me quite a long time ago. I can't remember exactly how long ago but she is a very spiteful and selfish woman and she was angry with me for seeking psychiatric help saying it was embarrassment for her and she was denying I had any diagnosis in 1997 after assessments despite my medical records saying I was statemented with significant social needs she shouted at me 'I hope you get the counselling that you think you need'

She was very rude to me about other things like religion and my name I took very personally because she's English and we're not necessarily because my father is not English and it upset me a lot then she said she was done with me AND everyone else and she blocked me on social media and stopped talking to me. Not heard from her since except she saw Sheldon (Dejeaun girl my daughter in law) on the bus with Omari (my grandson) and told Sheldon that 'no one will speak to her!!!' and Sheldon told her she wasn't getting involved it's nothing to do with her! Then My mum went to town the other day to look for my dad and told him nobody will speak to her... The thing is SHE stopped speaking to me! And I HATE it sometimes as we used to speak nonstop on messenger... I defended her to my sister Jasmine plenty of times because my sister refuses to talk to my mum because she behaves so awfully and is so selfish and horrible...but still my mum turned against me I feel sad she did what she did and stopped talking to me but I'm not about to try to contact her because the problem is that in the past I have reunited with her and she ALWAYS behaves in her ways again and does the same thing so it's pointless really PLUS I have nothing to apologise for!! If she wants me to apologise because SHE burnt the bridges not me with her spite and selfish behaviour My dad said she clearly regrets what she's done by cutting us off but I don't see what I'm supposed to do anyway. In person she's just awful HORRIBLE... I could message with her all day on FB messenger and she's ok ....but then in person it's like she's a totally different person and her behaviour is always so awful and embarrassing and obnoxious out in public ect... It's difficult to explain but she just is an awful type of person to be around.... Then she's spiteful and selfish only thinks of herself and her own feelings and opinions as I said already when it comes to her interactions... She only used to come to visit when she wanted money for a taxi to get home because she went to town and didn't want to get a bus so she would knock at mine asking for taxi money because I live next to town she would sit down half hour looking at her watch all the time and then say can she have her taxi money she wants to go!! She often only used to message with me daily to try to find out gossip and information about my dad or other people who won't speak to her. We're not allowed into her apartment or to go to visit her at all. We never have been because she's not open to visitors. I just feel all confused about how I really feel about it all