Wishing On a Star

 I'm up so early with acid  Decided to make Miquelle breakfast. She has croissant with Nutella. Nothing changes there. She still won't eat anything new. It gets really frustrating. I am going through a phase I can't be bothered with meat and cooking it... But all she eats is chicken and mince in limited recipes... It's the same meals over and over. If I buy ready meals she wastes them but I'm under duty to provide her meals.  I just wish she would eat things like egg on toast, beans on toast, vegetables, cheese toasties, soup... But no. It's really getting on my nerves. I put brown bread with natural peanut butter out for the birds. So far no takers. I hope the magpies come soon. The air is heavy with birdsong but I can't actually SEE any birds out. Yesterday I got tired of watching and fell asleep then when I woke up all the bread was gone but I missed seeing them!  It's 07:27 We still have Neo. I find him a nuisance too. Always wants feeding and having...

 Oh I have fibromyalgia as well always aching and tired with no energy it's awful. The other day I couldn't even keep my eyes open I didn't get out of bed for days. I often have days like that today was one but I was on the sofa all day. I felt exhausted all yesterday from the walk on Saturday. I had to wait in today for the council gas engineer but he came quite early. I had decided to feed magpies that hang around next to my flat I can see out of the side window where my sofa is I'm the only one who has side windows in my row as I'm on the end of the row. No, no views here it's blocked by trees but I don't want to see across the valley of maisonettes and other depressing elements to make me feel more depressed about ending up stuck living here. I don't understand why I always end up living in shit places I don't like. It's tolerable here but depressing for me as I would rather be the other side of town Hillsborough way it's more where I fel...

H ello Roxana Faye, it is good to hear from you, if a little surprise.  Not sure how you knew my email address. At the moment, I'm not well I'm in bed or on top of the bed because  feel weak, aching all over including arms and coughing.  Little appetite either and I have the other problem of acid reflux that plagues me.   I also have fibromyalgia or chronic fatigue syndrome.  So I was lying down a lot before this virus only started yesterday though G has been unwell for a week.  I do go out at least 2 or 3 times a week to town; my usual a bit of shopping then coffee.  All the things I thought I might do, once retired, it doesn't happen because of lack of energy.  I'm not bothered about drinking alcohol either.  I end up with terrible acid reflux so it takes away any enjoyment and the pubs we used to go in have closed down and it has just changed since lockdown and never returned to what it was.  I hate all the high-rise flats being ...